i am so frigging screwed for mid years im going to die. im frigging screwed, im frigging screwed. i wish i was a better liar. i wish i wouldn't cause hurt to people every single time. i wish i didn't have to make people angry towards me everytime. because everything i say or do is wrong.
i hate you bustard, for even appearing into my life, because what you said were full of shits and i wouldn't even know what to do when i see you face to face. i don't trust you anymore, i swear.
i can't listen to rascall flatt's songs, it gets me crying. it brings a whole lot of memories i dont even wish to think about. its okay, memories are good. you're still one person i keep close to my heart.
no one cares anymore. of course, i'm not worthy of being cared for.
i swear, its my fever causing me to be like this. just at the right time, wow.
my eye is frigging swollen i don't wish to show myself in public in this state.
and i'm fat. i've got chubby cheeks!
please excuse this post, i'm just not myself.
&i'm torn between this life i lead and where i stand.
(8:39 PM)